I've been super busy the past few weeks: the NJ reception/engagement party, work (new team that is super busy), trying to remodel the townhouse in 3 weeks (hardwood floor, walls, closets, entire bathroom, recess lights, blinds, etc.), and buying furniture, while still doing the normal Church stuff (which is the most enjoyable and least busy haha).
But yeah wow, I haven't felt busy in a long time. In the past few weeks or longer, I've felt zero boredom. There is so much to do and juggle that I'm not bored at all. That's a pretty rare statement for me. And it's great. I hate feeling emotionally bored.
However, on the flip side, I hate feeling shallow. The busyness had cut into my emotional capacity and ability to process deeply about how I am doing and what my deep thoughts/feelings are.
I also realized that I have a low-tolerance threshold when it comes to work. I complain about having to work a lot and needing to eat lunch during meetings (if I have time to eat at all). But if I objectively think about it, I'm not working THAT much. Last week was one of the peak weeks of the quarter and I worked 54 hours, but prior weeks were less. Maybe it's just that, before this team, I probably worked way less than 40 hours a week, so it's definitely an adjustment, both the hours and the pace.
I think I have higher tolerance for Church stuff and personal life stuff. Perhaps I have entitlement syndrome for work because it's more transactional and less loyalty-based... "I deserve better", "I can get a better job", but you can't say or think that in your personal life; the people in your personal life--friends, family, etc-- are permanent; you're forced to work through issues. But yeah, I think God is growing my tolerance at work too, and teaching me to work through issues, to change culture, to stand up for what I think is right, and fight for change. Basically, take ownership instead of always thinking of bouncing when things aren't the best. Be a leader, essentially.
