God is my manager

I love my job. It's only been a month, but I love it so far. It's everything I loved in a job that I realized over the past 2 companies that I've worked for. It's tactical; it's fast-paced; it's relational; it's broad in scope. And on top of that, I have an awesome manager, who spends time with me. Because love is spelled T-I-M-E.

Last last Friday in worship, I felt God say to me that He is my manager. Even though I love my manager at work, God says to me that He is my manager. And He's even greater than anyone I can imagine. He always has time for me. He says we can have 1:1s any time. He always wants the best for me, and believes in my growth. He is my encourager. I can share anything, personal or professional with Him. I can update Him on my life and tell Him of any help needs, because He is powerful and has all authority. He makes things happen, according to His good and perfect will. And His will includes me, because He loves me more than I know. He knows me. He is familiar with all of my ways. Before I tell Him something, He already knows. But He loves to hear it from me anyway, because He loves hearing me talk to Him and spend time with Him.

God is so amazing. This revelation is so amazing.

Honestly, I thought I was going to have a terrible manager, coming here. Part of that was my first impression on the phone with her, and part of that was that I've always had amazing managers and I thought in my heart that I'm due for a bad manager. And part of me thought that maybe God wants to train me and test me through a bad manager. But I stand amazed. And I was mistaken. God has a plan for us. Sometimes we think He just wants to teach us a lesson or train us like an Army commander or something. But God is so much better than that. His plans for us go deep. They're deep and sophisticated and well-planned out. and we have no idea. no idea how good He is. We don't even know.

Value

My value is not based on my knowledge, my experiences, what I can provide, how I can help, how I can make people happy or pleased with me, how much i can impress people, how much of a role I play in transforming people's lives, how wise or mature or humble i am,  how likeable or appropriate acting I am.

It's hard though, especially with new friends, new communities, and a new working environment. With old friends, they already decided to like you, to be your friend. You have memories that won't go away. With new people and new environments, it's always like I'm trying to earn more love and make myself more valuable. How can my skills and diligence and previous working experience and my EQ help make me valuable here in this working environment? How can my deep sharing and vulnerability and mysteriousness and care for others and eye contact  help make others (who already have friends) want to care about me and make me their friend?

Without a kingdom of God mindset, all we focus on is our insecurity and trying to satisfy the never ending hole. But we forget that we have already won. God is pleased with us. We are accepted by God. We have won. Our battle is not against flesh and blood but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the forces of evil in the spiritual realm (Eph6:12). So let's not fight the wrong battle here in this short short while that we are in earth.