Just standing there

Squirrel was basically standing there for 30 seconds. It seemed forever. It wasn't moving. Just standing there. Like one of those movie scenes where the camera-man starts circling around the person while the person stands there in deep thought staring into space. Well, that was this squirrel. Two students on bikes rode past the squirrel and were like: what is it doing?

Definitely put a smile on my face. What an interesting squirrel. yea, well. what was it doing? standing there in the middle of a huge open space, frozen in thought.

Sometimes I get a moment like that, where I'm the one standing there frozen in time while the rest of the world keeps going. Like the NYC scene where everyone else is walking somewhere and one guy is just standing there. Maybe it's because the rest of the world isn't stopping to think, and asking themselves, well, what am I doing?

Of course stopping to think for too long isn't good either. Like the squirrel would probably be shot if it stood there for hours. Or some student would pick it up and give it a good squeeze. (because you know you've always wanted to do that)

New goal

It's not the new year, but I suddenly decided to set a goal for myself, starting today, to get myself together. of course not by my strength, but God's strength--yet faith and actions work together.

Anyway, this is the goal (and I already did all 3 for today)
1. Run for 30 minutes (treadmill or outside) or 45 minutes on the elliptical, 3x per week
2. Read 3 chapters of the bible every day and journal at least 3 sentences
3. 10 push-ups and 30 crunches every day

I know my goals sound trivial and really normal routines for most people. But I really have a hard time running, and usually only run like 5 minutes straight--ellipticals are easier and I can do those for an hour, but I haven't had the patience to do that in forever. I also haven't read the bible every day since high school or college. And I rarely regularly journal.

And I really lack hobbies. When people ask me what I do in my free time, I avoid the question by saying I don't have free time. The truth is that I don't really do anything. I google things, chat with people, write blog posts, research useless things, put things on my calendar, etc. So yea. I have been getting bored and increasingly lonely which hasn't been good. So now I'm going to run, and long term exercise supposedly boosts dopamine levels, which should decrease boredom.

I also tried to get into 3D printing since my building has a 3D printer, but let me tell you a secret. It's not that cool. It's really hard to find anything useful to print and also really hard to design things in 3D. 3D printing is also very slow. So, if you see hype about 3D printing, just know it's not going to take over the world any time soon. So yea. Failed hobby attempt.