I can be quite good at writing cards. Perhaps because I can have deep affections for people that are difficult for me to express in person, so I write it in a card. Or perhaps because when I am alone, I can access my deepest emotions more easily.
I had a realization recently that I'm not sure if I've written God a card before. Sure, I've journaled and I've prayed. But the format of the cards that I write are different. They're deeper and more affectionate. They recount history, contain gratefulness, express hope for a future together.
I'm going to write God a card.
One time, I told a friend "you know I can't refuse you", and she said that's what she says to God. And I thought to myself: wait, I've never said that to God before.
Recently, I've been more expressive towards God in this way. When I think of something affectionate I want to tell God, I write it down so I don't forget it. So that I can reread it later and feel the affection that I felt in that moment.
Things like:
God, your dreams are my dreams
I will keep my heart soft for you. I will engage, for you. I will try, for you
It is my honor and my desire to follow and obey you. You touch the deepest innermost parts of my heart
Life is fun, full of hope, because it's with you
Often, the reason I can write good cards is because I allow the affections for the person to fester and grow as I draft the card. I'm doing that now with God too. I'm going to write a really good card to God.
