There are periods in my life when I think too much. Thinking too much causes confusion, but I can't seem to let it go. Here are some thoughts; they are subjective, as are all my thoughts.
I think that all four statements below are true
1: Life is hard, even when it’s not.
2: You are alone, even when you are not.
3: Life is easy, even when it’s not.
4: You are never alone, even when you are.
(1)Life is confusing and overwhelming if you think about it too much. Even if everything is going well in life, you can think, get confused and lose all motivation for everything. It’s hard to hang on because you want to. It’s easy to hang onto life for the sake of hanging on.
(2)One day, no human will be there for you or no one will understand you, and you will be alone even if you are surrounded by friends.
(3)Jesus carries our burdens. He died for us. He has already won.
(4) God is always with you. And He knows. Everything.
I can't seem to give up thinking about life. It gives me some satisfaction when I come up with some conclusions that satisfy me. But the questions are endless. I know I need to work on living in the present. But that requires so much trust. I'm afraid that I'll be blind if I live in the present and stop thinking about life. What does living in the present even mean? Some people don't live in the past, don't live in the future, AND don't live in the present. They live in themselves. They have this internal world of thoughts and emotions. That is bad. They risk losing connection with the world, and with other people, which worsens their problem.
Sometimes what I really want to do is to just enjoy friendship, enjoy music, enjoy life and companionship. But is life really about just enjoying things? Is life all about fun?
Colossians 3:2 "Set your minds on things above, not earthly things"
1 Corinthians 13: 2-3 "If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing"
Life without God is inherently meaningless. If we don't set our minds on things above, if we think as the world thinks, then we can only become more and more confused and overwhelmed.
Life is complex, but it is also very simple.
Ecclesiastes 1:18 "For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief"
One pastor once explained this verse as meaning the more we know about what could be, the more sorrow we have because we realize how great the difference between what could be and what is. The more we experience God, the more we understand how wonderful His love and how wonderful everything about Him is, the more grief we feel for those who are suffering in the world because we see how they could have experienced what we have experienced and known what we know, and yet the difference between what could be and what is grieves us.
Sometimes I think that the more I think, the more conclusions I will come up with and then one day I will have many conclusions and be satisfied. But the truth is I'll never be satisfied with my own conclusions. Life without God is inherently meaningless. There are endless questions and no answers if your mind isn't set on things above. Each "answer" directs to another question, and no answer can satisfy as THE Answer satisfies. Jesus is THE Answer.
Why do I forget that?
Why do I not trust?
Thinking about it, it's pretty dumb that I don't trust. What was I going to do? Trust myself? yea, right. My thoughts and emotions are about the least reliable thing in my world, and yet I find it hard to trust God? why? O stubborn self, why? Why do you do what is stupid and think about foolish things?
God is so merciful.
