I think I'm finally past the honeymoon period of my new job, though my job is still probably more exciting or at least equally exciting as my weekends. I was kind of hoping that the honeymoon period would cover the amount of time it would take me to become close to my Church community so that there wouldn't be this boring (or lonely) gap. but sadly, as I predicted, getting close to people takes time. It can be accelerated by taking more initiative, but only by so much.
In this gap period is often when I get tested the most. It's easy to fall back to old unhealthy patterns of spending your time. It's also hard to be motivated to get close to God without having a close community or something else exciting going on in life. When work was exciting, I was just so thankful for my job. My view of life was exciting. I'd wake up and be like, life is awesome. The hidden words after that were: because work is awesome. Work actually helped me to see God in a brighter light. Because I saw hope at work, I also saw hope in my spiritual life and other aspects of life. Each area of my life influences the other areas of my life. I'm supposed to derive my source of joy and hope from God, and have that influence work and other areas of life, but sometimes, without realizing it, it's actually happening the other way around.
That's why these gap periods are good tests, allowing me to see my real state. What I really need is to be able to see more clearly the hope I have in Christ and that He has really amazing plans for me, and a destiny and calling beyond what I can imagine.
It's easy to think the solution is just to get a boyfriend, but there's a honeymoon period for that too. Jesus is the only way to make life truly exciting and full of hope.
