Your Reality

Your reality is what causes you to become alive.

Some people are zombies when they go to work, but as soon as they come home and head off to a party or to the mall where their friends are, they become alive, their eyes light up, etc. and, basically they become another person. Because of their zombie-like state at work, their coworkers are probably just acquaintancs, since they have no interest in getting to know their coworkers, but simply are just waiting to meet up with friends after work. This situation only highlights 2 aspects/realities, one of which is significantly more 'real' to that person.

Most of us have multiple aspects of our lives, multiple realities. For me, I have work/coworkers, apartment-mates & western interns, Chinese tutors, Church people, Harry Potter novels, God's Word, iPod music/audiobook, Prayer time, etc.. Each of these has a different level of "realness" feel for me. It's not always about the amount of time you spend in each category that determines how real they are to you, because you could spend the most time at work and be the least 'awake' during that time.

I developed this theory yesterday, as I realized that before I started my Chinese private tutoring, I paid more attention to my coworkers and my life at work was slightly more "real"-feeling to me--I looked forward to seeing my coworkers and my eyes lit up more when I saw them,etc. , but since then my Chinese tutoring sessions have ranked higher in realness-feel. Also, I had stopped reading Harry Potter for half a week, but started reading the 4th book again yesterday, and felt that it decreased the realness-feel for other aspects.

But I don't think that when one aspect of your life becomes more real, then the other aspects necessarily become less real. ... but our own love is limited. We are selfish by nature, and when we have something else that makes us come alive, we are tempted to ignore the other things that do not satisfy us as much. But I want to try to keep giving my full self for my coworkers and my work, and the other aspects of my life. --and remember that I can only do this if my love comes from God. I hope that my greatest reality will be God, and that I may fall so in love with Him, that this reality will spill over to every aspect.

Okay. Sorry if this made no sense... it's probably a hit or miss type of thing to understand. I was really encouraged by 2 Peter1:3-11 yesterday, as I realized I am often nearsighted!!